oh, midterms week

how i hate thee. oh well! it's almost over. tomorrow is wednesday, and i get to go home on thursday after classes. i'm so excited!

i cannot wait to see kurt. i miss him so much! i've been up here in flag for almost five full weeks since i was home last. it's the longest i've stayed. impressive, aye? i think so! but now i am going through withdraws from home cooked meals. not for much longer though! hooray! i just have to get through a journalism midterm and an advertising test, then my mind will be checked out and i can get the heck outta here!

i can't wait to see my momma. and the rest of my family. megan. kurt. dan. kari. katy.

i miss them all so much!

on another (very different note)...

I am proud to announce that Susannah Faith was born on Friday, February 20, 2009 in the afternoon. She was 8lbs, 4 oz and 20 1/2 inches long!

She is such a beautiful baby, and I cannot wait to meet her! Her family means the world to me, and are a significant part of my life.

Welcome to the world, Miss Susannah.

Well friends and family, it's off to study for me! I hope this Tuesday evening finds you all happy and healthy. Enjoy springtime!

<3

Oh so full of love...

this valentines day was the best i've had in quite a few years. being in middle school and high school always made it an awful holiday if you were single. i've come to the conclusion that valentines day is what you make of it. i refused to be miserable all day. so i went with the best option: to have a fun day!

i got to sleep in. i needed that pretty bad. sarah and i had talked friday night about going to see a movie, but to get to the theater we had to get our cars out of the snow. so sarah and i spent about 2 hours shoveling our cars out of the snow that surrounded them, and put them in a less snowy parking lot. we then went in and talked to kathryn, the RA at the desk, who advised us to get our movie tickets early. so, we went to the theater, got our tickets, and then came back to shower and get ready.

we went to wendys for dinner. very romantic, i know! we didn't want to go to a sit down place, considering the nature of the holiday. after that, we got to the theater and found good seats. we saw "he's just not that into you". it was such a cute movie. it'll definitely be one that i go see again and probably own eventually. the cast and soundtrack made it very memorable.

after the movie, we each had a meal left and went to starbucks. we returned to our dorm, changed into our jammers and gathered in my room to watch "a walk to remember". valentines day gives perfect reason to watch an unlimited number of chick flicks. towards the middle, sarah and i got to talking and ended up having a heart-to-heart the whole last half of the movie.

all in all, it was a really great day. i had fun hanging out with sarah and chrissy and not making valentines day any more than what it is. just another day! i hope you all had a lovely valentines day, whether you're single, engaged, or happily married.

<3

flashback

i woke up to a few inches of snow yesterday morning...now there's nearly two feet. i'm still crossing my fingers that we'll have a snow day tomorrow! school closed at 3pm today, so here's to hoping.

does anyone else have those memories that you can recall and feel like all over again? i had that happen tonight...whoa. talk about strange. i was talking about a particular event, and as i'm retelling it, i feel like i was right there sitting outside starbucks reliving the entire thing all over again. gives me the coolest but weirdest feeling in my stomach. crazy.

welp, i've got two tests tomorrow that i really oughtta study for. [still crossing my fingers for that snow day...]

good night, loves.

-M

RIP Becca

you are truly missed already.

your smile and energy lit up the tuba section for the past two years.

you're in a better place now.

RIP Miss Becca

we love you

Just when I thought this was all over...

I'm blog happy tonight. Don't ask why.

Fall season took a huge toll on my emotions. Holy cow. It was hard to watch the band on the field without me, and all things like that. Well, just when I thought I'd gotten through all of that "I'm not there", rough emotional stuff, winterguard season starts.

It's going to be the death of me...Why can't the school year be over? I want it to be done so bad; I hate dealing with all of these emotions. Jealousy is a bitch, and I let it get the best of me. But some of these feelings are legit jealousy and hurt.

Current state of mind: You never did that with us when I was there. Why now?

This is so hard...So hard. I wish I could just avoid it all. I know I can't, but a girl can dream right?

I'm gonna go read a book and take my mind off all this. Hopefully that'll help. Good night everyone.

an old piece of mine...

airplane

I couldn’t be happier. I’m fresh out of high school, ready to take on the world as me, Michelle Lynn.

My feet hit the ground running as soon as graduation was over. Decisions here and there, people that will disappear from my life forever. Like I mentioned before, I couldn’t be happier. But that was silly thinking.

Here I am, sitting on an airplane, flying to the other end of the country. It seems banal to the hoi polloi, but to me, each time feels like the first.

My nose pressed against the window,
Cool and hard at the surface.
Odd shaped buildings surround me,
Some docking planes, others lonely with emptiness.

I possess the reaction of a four year old.
My excitement is overwhelming,
The nerves still simmering in the pits of my stomach.
Speed increases,
coasting until the gravity becomes
nonexistent.

Soaring high above the world,
Oblivious to anything but the ground below.
Amused by what lies beneath.
Fascination and awe lingers in my mind,
Dancing with thrill.

My inner four year old crawls slowly
Retreating to the depths of my heart,
Until the clouds float in mystery beneath me,
Yanking the child out from within.

A child lives within everyone;
That’s how we’re the same.
Unique in how it is drawn out.
Taking flight just happens to work for me.

I’m really not at all sure where that came from. I’m sitting miles above the earth, and haven’t felt so inspired in ages. It’s the best feeling in the world. Knowing that one day, I’ll get to sit on a plane and get to do this for a living… Being inspired to write, and getting paid for it. I changed my major the other day during church, which was actually yesterday, but it feels like three centuries ago.

Clouds. What an amazing thing. I can’t even find a way to describe them. Neatly arranged, yet scattered throughout the sky. I know that doesn’t make sense or anything, but hey, a girl can dream right? I really just wanna go play on them. You know, see what they feel like. I imagine that they’re like moon bounces, or something similar to it. Like if I were to jump on one, it’d bounce. I can see my little self romping about on the clouds.

I wonder if Jesus lets you go cloud romping in Heaven? Because that would probably be the coolest thing in the whole wide world. Among other things, obviously. We could play games of leap frog, or in this instance, leap cloud. This may in fact just be me ranting on and on about life, but I don’t care. It feels so amazing to be writing again. I’ve missed it. If I could always be on an airplane like this, the possibilities for my inspiration would be endless. I guess it just goes to show what God is doing in my life.

Normally when Kevin talks in a church setting like youth group or big church or whatnot, I zone out and pretty much ignore him. Let’s face it. He gets very boring sometimes. Like really really boring. Smack my forehead boring. Anyway, since Dusty wasn’t at church yesterday and Brad is on his sabbatical, Kevin taught. It wasn’t what I would call earth-shattering, but it was still really good nonetheless. What’s interesting is that he gave us permission to zone out and just listen to what God had to say to us.

God speaks in incredible ways. I was sitting there in church, and my train of thought ended up somewhere near a reflection of my English 101 class this past fall, and all of the writing that we did. I distinctly remember getting my descriptive essay, and the feeling that I got, so I basically let go of the steering wheel of the train and let God take over. I’m astonished, amazed and awed. God is an awesome God. He put it on my heart to question why I wanted to major in business. Sure, I would be great at it, but I lack passion. I have a passion for being passionate about what I do. Obviously, I like, I mean, love, to write. Why else would I be sitting on a plane with my laptop open ready to watch a movie and end up cranking out new poetry?

The clouds are getting thinner, and becoming far and few between. It’s pretty close to being saddening. I always overlook the fact that it’s the little things like clouds that make the ride of life worthwhile.


-6.2.2008-

Hello, blog. Remember me?

Wow. I've had such good intentions of posting things on here for oh, a month or two. I'm so completely behind. Life has kept me busy! Where to start, where to start?

School. I'm back at NAU and in my second semester. I love it more this semester than last. My roommate chose to move to a different part of camps, leaving me with my own room. I can't complain much! I recently added my name and pictures to the biggest wall, and love it. I'm happy with the way it turned out! As of now, I'm still majoring in Journalism. I think it'll change for next year though. I really want to come out of college making more than $8,000. As of now, I'm considering Hotel and Restaurant Management. I would be in it for the event planning aspect. I don't want to be a typical college student that majors in business. That just isn't me. I've never been typical, and don't want to be typical.
Last week, I submitted my application for a Residence Assistant (RA) and had my first interview this morning. I'm confident that it went well and that my Wednesday letter will inform me that I have a second round interview next weekend. Perks aside, I think I'd do a great job with the position. The perks are lovely though--free room and board, and meals. That's more than tuition right there. So keep that one in your prayers.
I've found a "church" to belong to up here. It's called InterVarsity, and is like youth group for college students. We meet once a week in the science building and do worship, listen to a speaker and grow in our faith. I've made some awesome friends through this and have also become stronger in my beliefs. I'm so thankful that God has been blessing this semester! Through IV, I've found a girls Bible study that I attend Monday evenings. Getting to know a new group of people on an entirely new level has been truly amazing. I have really gotten to know more people this semester, and I'm so happy. Last semester I was kind of a loner.
One of my middle school friends, Beth is also attending NAU. She and I were real close in middle school, and though we kept in touch through high school, we have become close again this semester. She and I have always gotten along real well. We go to Zumba (the most amazing workout class I've ever taken-- it's high cardio dance, and it's incredible-- my hips never moved the way do now!) together, as well as IV.

I know one of you was bound to ask, so I figured I may as well adress it:
Romance Life. I don't have one. There have been a few potential guys, but nothing really worked out. And after the most recent one, I've lost all hope in the male gender. Except Kurt. (And no, I promise, we aren't dating!) Well, and my dad. My brother is questionable though...He's a high school boy. Let's readress him when he's a bit older, shall we?

Familia! They're doing well. Busy with life, as usual. I miss them sometimes, but we all talk enough so it's okay! I'm actually talking to my Mom now. She says hi. I found out today that my cousin, Renee, is pregnant with twins. I'm so excited for her! Her and her husband have been trying for awhile, so hearing this just makes me very happy. My cousins Taylor and Zach were up here today, along with Tay's boyfriend, LT, and my Aunt. They were touring the campus, about the same time as my interview and both finished within minutes of each other. I got to spend the afternoon with them having lunch, walking around downtown Flag, and showing off my room. It was great to see them! We had a lot of fun together.

Well, this has been a rather long post. Sorry about that! An update was much needed though! :] I'm off to put on my pjs and make some dinner. Have a lovely Saturday ya'll.

-M-