I've never been in a long distance relationship with a guy, or a relationship with any guy other than a friendship, for that matter. I've quickly learned how much I hate distance; hate having miles upon miles separating me from the one person who has ever understood me backward and forward.
Allow me to explain:
Kurt is in Idaho going to school, and it's been a month (as of today, actually) since I last saw him. While this breaks my heart, I know it's the right thing. That doesn't make me like it any more, however. It's hard to have someone that you care so much about be so far away. Not getting to see them on a weekly basis, or hear their voice, or feel their strong arms embracing you...It's tough.
The first week or two was pretty difficult for me; I was really missing him. The past couple weeks have been easier. We text on an as-constant-as-possible basis, aka when we're not in class or doing something like it. I wouldn't trade that for anything in the world; I'm glad we get to text so frequently. It doesn't make it any easier. In fact, I feel like the past week has been even harder. There are things that I want to share with him, but can't. I see pictures and get an ache in my stomach just because I miss him so much. It sounds completely lame, and almost like I have romantic feelings for this specatacular friend of mine. There are none, though.
Kurt is in Idaho going to school, and it's been a month (as of today, actually) since I last saw him. While this breaks my heart, I know it's the right thing. That doesn't make me like it any more, however. It's hard to have someone that you care so much about be so far away. Not getting to see them on a weekly basis, or hear their voice, or feel their strong arms embracing you...It's tough.
The first week or two was pretty difficult for me; I was really missing him. The past couple weeks have been easier. We text on an as-constant-as-possible basis, aka when we're not in class or doing something like it. I wouldn't trade that for anything in the world; I'm glad we get to text so frequently. It doesn't make it any easier. In fact, I feel like the past week has been even harder. There are things that I want to share with him, but can't. I see pictures and get an ache in my stomach just because I miss him so much. It sounds completely lame, and almost like I have romantic feelings for this specatacular friend of mine. There are none, though.
Sometimes I feel like I'm not as important to him as I used to be, and to be honest, that scares me. I don't want this friendship to fall apart. I won't let it. But when your best friend is 800 miles away, it's difficult not to worry about things. Like whether or not he'll find a new best friend up there, or if we will change dramatically in being apart for so long and not knowing what to say to each other when we're together again....It's the little [stupid] things like that that I worry about.
So, to those of you who have mastered the art of long distance relationships, CHEERS to you. I'm still learning.
